Talk is cheap, Sunday, December 26, 2010

Why everyone enever ever think before they speak? oh maybe they are thinking but not so clearly,they hate to see me struggles for life,they hate to see me living in the past, so they talk. they just talk ! it's free anyway,without knowing how someone else's heart could be so hurt and break into pieces, just one single words! even they not mean to say something that's gonna hurt me..thanks anyway!

i believe i have a rights to choose what should i do in the hard situation, i know the more i get advice is the more i get wiser,but in this case,people never see me trying,they never know how i feel. "MOVE ON" that's the only advice they can share, "you're not move on,you should move on" ,they keep saying it , well what am i supposed to do with my life is something that not even related to them!

You never know how hard it is losing some precious people in your life, knowing that they never come back again,they're in Better place, rest in peace. yes,i often crying everytime i think about my bestfriend who died last year, and i am so lonely without my grandma who always supporting me no matter i'm wrong or right,she passed away too,my daddy cheat on mom, he used to be my hero but not anymore!! so, do you know what should i do in this confusing situation.

I've been trying this whole time,but i can't. i just can't forget these people who influences my life. especially my BFF, it's like just yesterday we're on our Pajamas,laughing,sharing stories about some jerks,a hateful conversation on the phone about a bitch who's trying to steal our boyfriend, and a midnight call about how we stuck in bored situation and talking about it for 6 hours.

i know i still have a lot of friends to share, i still got any attention from people who support me..but trust me, i always force myself harder everyday when i open my eyes in the morning to forget the past and just move on!

they said i'm such a loser,i'm pathetic and sad! TALK IS CHEAP

they said i'm not trying, not even move from the first place,everything always complicated,reckless and hallow

they said i'm so Emo, just trying to get people attention TALK IS CHEAP

everything they said about me is just so hurt and cheap! they don't understand,they're never see the life through my eyes. they never here , in this situation. They all never know how i try so hard to move on..

they keep talking,judging,mocking and laughing about me. how i'm struggles and falling over and over again.

Like i sad before, Talk is cheap.. they only can talk without knowing how to walk in my shoes!